Mommy'ing

Ok Moms! Can I just vent real quick!

Let’s face it. Life is busy. We are busy being moms, being wives, being employees, students, etc. All because we are multitaskers by nature. But can I be honest with you for about a second; 9 times out of 10, I am all over the place. I start something and I am usually distracted by my kid and start something else, yet I never having finished the first task I started. And it just goes on and on. That's it, I’m winging it. I am just taking it a day at a time, praying to God that my kids turn out ok.

Amelia is five now. She knows when she’s up to no good; yet that gives her no reason to try and test us anyway. And her sister is worst! Aylah’s terrible two’s have been exactly that, terrible. If I am being honest, time-outs don't always work for me, when it comes to Aylah. I have run out of discipline ideas. Honestly, nothing works. I put pants on Aylah, she is screaming at the top of her lungs and kicking her feet until the pants are off. Same thing with shoes. She hates having shoes on her feet. The only way we have been successfully able to get her to obey is by bribing her.

Even though my girls aren't infants; we still experience sleepless nights. Some nights Aylah will randomly wake up and start singing songs in her room. She will be loud enough that Ariel and I can hear her through the camera. We have not been able to turn off Aylah’s little mind. Putting her to bed is another challenge. It can sometimes take us over an hour to put her to sleep and we have tried it all. One thing that has helped recently is mediation music. As funny as that sounds, my two year old falls asleep to mediation music lol.

Its hard to be a parent because you want the kids asleep at a decent hour so you can unwind and cuddle with hubby on the coach. However, you have to put yourself aside in order to deal with your children’s stuff. Ariel and I have decided to take turns putting the girls to sleep, that way we both have some quiet time.

I found that having mommy friends with little ones helps in so many ways. They understand your struggle and can relate to a lot of what you are going through. When I feel like I am failing as a mother, I turn to my mom friends for a different perspective and it truly helps.

Let’s not forget, not only am I a mother, but I am a wife too. That is important as well. I fight hard for my marriage. Things were tough when Aylah was born because Amelia had been diagnosed with Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis (JRA). I was trying to care for a newborn and also learn to deal with Amelia’s flared-up knees. All while Ariel was taking life easy. He would be up playing video games with his buddies and would leave me to run around with the girls. The video game took a toll on our marriage for a little while. We’re a work in progress but what I love about us is that we fight for our marriages and regardless I can tell that if I don't fight, Ariel will and vise versa.

Becoming a wife and mother has put a lot of things into perspective though. I use to live to  make everyone happy; to please everyone. I am an overthinker. I used to agree to pretty much everything. However, I quickly learned how exhausting that can be. I just have too much on my plate. I take care of myself now. I workout often. It makes me happy to spend time with my friends and occasionally I will just binge on the coach with some popcorn and ice cream. I’ve learned to say no and I do what works for us and I think in the end, that is what matters most. My girls will be proud of me and I am and always will be proud of them as well.